The Grass is Always Greener...Or Dead.

The Grass Is Always Greener on the Other Side. Ever heard that one before? Me too.

Let me start here, ever since I was a little girl, I have been rather aware. Aware of my surroundings, aware of people's energy & how it made me feel & aware that I have a big purpose in life.  At the age of 8, I was telling my mom that I was going to save the world. I knew that & I still do. The only difference is that as you grow up, the world gets a lot smaller and the intricacies of saving it get a lot, lot bigger.

At 18, I got so upset that there was no purpose to life and that all materialistic goods (including the ones everyone and their uncle's brothers dog was now lusting over) were simply useless. Wanting them, longing for them, useless. So instead of spending any money, I put it in a jar and labeled it, "For Things That Actually Matter," And at that time, I had decided that the things that actually mattered were feeding the hungry and helping the people in Africa. (It is important, but not the most important.)

Later that year, I entered Arizona State University, determined to do what I love, whatever that was. My heart told me to start volunteering, so I did. I went to the Community Service Program office  and signed up to do some of their larger events. I also found a brochure about doing play-therapy with a beautiful autistic 3 year old boy. So I called his mom immediately after I got home. We talked for an hour. It was amazing. A month later, I was offered a job at the Community Service Program and took it & offered a job working with Ian, this beautiful boy.  Now, I had two amazing jobs, doing what I loved. It came to me that "nothing is worth doing unless you're following your heart."
But I still had a burning passion inside that I couldn't figure out.

Two months into my freshman year of college, (and even though I was totally LOVING LIFE) I was pulling my hair out trying to figure out what I was truly passionate about. Passion became my word, everything I ate, breathed and listened to. I loved my life but knew there was more of an underlying purpose. A month later I became the President of the Kayak Club at ASU and built that up. Finally, I realized my passion: Garbage.

More importantly, it was the garbage that should in fact, be getting recycled...or never exist in the first place because of people's amazing ability to reduce. So, I founded a brand new club at ASU called R.A.D. Recycling (Ready, Aware, Devoted).  The first meeting, no one came. The next meeting, I had 7 people there...moving up in the world (by the end the list serve was 150 deep).  The club snowballed with so much interest & by the middle of my sophomore year, I was involved with professors, students & whole departments regarding the likes of recycling & the environment.

My time at ASU was amazing, I led & learned how to be led, co-launched and ran an underprivledged children's basketball camp, founded the ASU Sustianability Coalition, founded the Green Team, served as Vice President of Undergraduate Student Government, worked for the Global Institute of Sustainability, became a Pat Tillman Leadership Through Action Scholar, worked for Teach for America, volunteered, had multiple entreprenurial ideas, got chewed up & spit out, not-so-gracefully skidded through burn out, drank more Starbucks in a year than someone should drink in a lifetime,  learned more than I ever thought possible, built relationships, changed & grew.

Needless to say, I'm still on a journey to "save the world" with everyone else who chooses to join. On this particular journey, I have been meeting a lot of older people (10-40 years older than me in human years;-) and they all believe they are saving the world, too. They are, let me assure you.

However, often what they say to me is, "Wow, I wish I would have known this stuff when I WAS YOUR AGE." The first time I heard this, I thought, "Well-he-hell, being this young and understanding, "this stuff" does in fact make ME...the shit." Okay, awesome, now I will parade around like I am "the shit" and because I am, everything in the world will get better. NOT.  Embracing the "I'm Great" actually temporarily sacrificed my higher goal (to save the world). 

But not to worry, I would be further challenged with this everytime I was in a group of people older than me..."You're so lucky", "Wow, I wish I could go back in time", "You're so young to be here".....

It's interesting.  They are here too. They are here now and whether the calendar tells them they are 25, 35, 67, it doesn't matter because they have also come to beautiful realizations their soul needed to come to. That's what matters, that's all a part of it too.

And the grass is pretty dang green on this side:
*A beautiful life.
*Law of attraction on my side.
*Deep understanding of who I am and where I want to go.
*The ability to see through people's bullshit & be real with them.
*The awesome gift of being able to read someone immediately & understand exactly their ailments (or close to it), the root & how they can start healing if they want to.
*Having incredible healing & intuitive abilities that I am so grateful for & refining everyday.

But sometimes it's dead:
*I can't go to the State Fair and enjoy myself because I understand how much electricity is being used & how everyone eating the food could be feeding cancer with it.
*Doing activities that were once fun for me no longer are: like going to Sea World, the zoo (and ESPECIALLY circuses) because I see animals in captivity that need to be free. Yes, I know Sea World & the zoo also have rescue programs that may have brought them there, but the bottom line is that giraffes are not meant to be in the desert, it's unnatural.
*I can't happily drink Starbucks because I know every ingredient & know the effects on the body.
*I lay awake at night wondering if what I'm doing fully & completely benefits all of humanity & ask to be given signs if I need to be doing more.
*I can't work a job for someone else or one that is even slightly less-than-fulfilling. I physically & mentally can't handle it.
*I can't hang out at bars or most diners with friends, because of the noise, smell & alcohol-->I'm way to senstive to energy.
*I'll never have care-free party days

One of the biggest lessons I've learned in life is that problems don't need to be solved. There is a single root issue that underlies everything that is going on. That is the severe lack of self-love & inner peace.  Fixing the waste problem? People wouldn't be wasteful if they felt an affinity for their home space & mother earth, which would come from a deeper connection to themselves. Alleviating mass murders in schools? Self love & inner peace is the direct correlation.

But anyway,

In all, my life is blessed & I feel that I'm now on my mission to "save the world", which I have realized is only to save my inner self from chaos & bring pure love & peace inside. Everything in the world is reflected from the inside of each person outward.  Everything manmade is made by man. Have you ever met someone hard & cold? Cement. Have you ever met someone you just couldn't connect with? Buildings, walls, false archtypes, cars.

Love & peace still sounding like a mushy gooshy, too optimistic way of believing the world can be saved? Have you heard of the lady who was being robbed but insitead she offered the guy a sandwich and to stay for lunch? He didn't rob her, she was able to calmly call the cops and everything was fine.

For example, the Dali-Lama & Mother Theresa are pure love & peace and that's how they are (alive or not) saving the world. This is what makes up existence. Love seriously saves.  It's fundamental.

And after you have done the inner work to rediscover your self love it doesn't matter what you're doing. As long as you're doing what you love, you are saving the world, too.

Start Change Inside

Start:Now. Passionately. INspired.

Change: In math, a triangle is also known as the Delta sign, or the sign for change. If you look around life, you can see them everywhere.

Inside: Well, as hard as we try to change the world, we can only start where we have control and since the only true thing we have control over is our own actions & choices, it must start inside. Inside ourselves, inside our businesses, inside our communities.

Ways to find inspiration for substantial change:
http://successultranow.com/
www.namastera.com
http://www.davidwolfe.com/

Fresh, True, Wild, You.

Beyond GOOLOSH to Really, Really GOOD!

Happy Fall!!

I am so unbelieveably excited that the weather is finally cooling off, simply delicious isn't it?
I went outside yesterday morning & stood there for a good 20 minutes trying to drink the air and bathe myself in it...ahh...so wonderful!

So today, I just wanted to share a few recipes that you might enjoy!! (Oh yes, and GO ORGANIC baby;-)

Yogurt
1 avocado
1 banana
1 container fresh or frozen straberries
1/4 cup water
Put in the blender and blend...
ENJOY!

******This is one of our FAVORITES! It is melt-in-your-mouth amazing and you can't taste the avo at all.*****

Pudding
1 avocado
1 cup pure maple syrup
1/4 cup raw cacao
Blend 3/4 cup maple syrup with the avocado and some of the cacao. Add the rest of syrup. It gets super creamy, so you may have to stir it up a bit too.
 *****This darling, is such an awesome way to indulge and not feel the after effects of the sugar highs and lows.******

Sending you tons of love for your journey!!!